ReikiSanctuary

I Have Migrated

Reiki Sanctuary has moved

---> Reiki Sanctury @ Blogger Platform

 

Thank you to some forummers, I have just found out when clicked at my old site at VOX - http://reikisanctuary.vox.com (where I used to weblog), it is automatically linked to my typepad account.

As at 30 September, 2010 VOX has closed down. 

With the kind gesture from VOX Team, I had taken their offer to migrate all the data to Typepad.  Then, it was the only technical support to back-up and not losing all my previous writings and media libraries.

However, I am much inclined to continue blogging using Blogger platform.  I am not a professional blogger and not a person seeking to earn advertising dollars.  Adsense is becoming popular and it is already available in Blogger.  My bloggings are, generally, posts about my thoughts and not with a single purpose for business nor to promote myself and my services.

At the same time, I just dislike the feeling that there are free and paid versions in one platform.  It gives me the sense of inflexibility and limited freedom when I am using the free version.  The mind will simply tell me that I could get much better things unless I start to pay for the full paid version.  To continue blogging using a free hosted platform serves me well.

Honestly, I didn't spend much time with Typepad but this platform definitely has its followers.  It is one of the most highly recommended site.  Another one is Wordpress.  Still, I am thankful.  Typepad has made my migration easier.

I have continued blogging in Blogger.  My new site at Blogger is The New Site - [http://reikisanctuary.blogspot.com/

 

The Unexpected Trip

May you rest in peace, my dear nephew.

Indeed, it was sad to receive the news of your passing on 22 July, 2010, my loved one.  How you left us tragically.  How, after so many years apart, we met again.  Only this time, we said goodbye differently, through prayers.  It will be these prayers that will connect us.

I was glad, and very honoured, to stand next to you to give you that last respect.  You deserved my respect.  You deserved the love that was not fully given by us.

You made me traveled thousand miles but it was worth it.  You brought back lots of good memories for me to cherish.  You brought the reunion of family where love was once lost, but not forgotten.  You had become the catalyst to re-unite us, reinforce joy and love and the great sense of understanding and respect.

You will be, and shall be, walking into the white light to rest in peace.  You have departed from the earth to be amongst the angels.  To take care of you.  To guide you.

We will always remember you as that 'little boy' full of life.  Full of love.  Full of desires to better your life, and the people around you.  You were what Love was about.

Walk into that white light, dear one.  It is a better place.  It is your resting place.  It is a place that will keep you safe.

You are dearly missed.  You are loved.

Layers of Tranquility

For what it was worth ..
for what it was meant to be ..
for what it was to bring ..

for everything that should happen, should happen for a good reason.  Every action has a reaction.  That whats meant to be will always find a way to come about.

11 July, 2010 ..

.. It was the day for the believers.  It was the day for transformation.  It was the day to invoke manifestation to progress, awakening various psychological and spiritual ideas to find and understand the transitional period of our life.

It was a day just to be who we are, back to our days when we were just a little baby with pure heart.  Where we only knew love and everybody was not a stranger and we responded with an interesting form of compassion.  Where we knew nothing much about the world but delightful to be here.  There was no fear but faith.  There was no sorrow but joy.  There was no hate but love.

Perfect manifesting happens with a clean and pure heart.  The heart is our subconscious mind.  Having a clean and pure heart simply means that our subconscious mind is clear of any impressions that might pollute the purity of our intent.

It was a day filled with powerful means for our inner awakening to achieve unparalled spiritual growth with time.  It was a day, given to those who soaked in the energy, to unlock the doors to paradise; to unlock the doors to heaven on earth.

Surely, there was a reason that brought us to it; to experience 11 July and to pass through it.  To create reality with our intuition and attention.  It could be an awakening zone to complete one another - the Earth and our Soul Spirits and that of the Universe.  We filled in each other missing spots with higher understanding and love.

I had put my faith in doing it.  I had planted many seeds of prayers, for myself and for my loved ones.  I planted my earthly desires to bring forth for grandeur hopes to take place - because I wanted them, because I longed for them.  I cannot discover myself without first discovering the Universe, the earth and the imperatives of my own being.

Each breath of life, and each day and night, has a creative power and a vision far beyond any rational thought.  Far beyond any creations of which we are capable of.  I had spread my wings for love, for peace, for joy.  I joined the many more believers to bring the New Light in fully and letting the old Self to be taken away.

I prayed for wisdom to bring awareness not isolated from my own being or from the human community.  I had soaked myself in all layers of tranquility to receive and to radiate, and to progress on the path of my spiritual journey.  Yet, earth bound.  Yet, faith towards paradise, towards Heaven, towards mind-ful with one with the Universe.

Sunday, 11 July was a beautiful day.  It was not just another Sunday nor was it an objective for the ultimate, although most of us would think it was.  The purpose of giving a greater consciousness for the day's event was to allow our intelligent mind to move from awareness to resonate with our consciousness.  From words to wordlessness.  From faith to transcendent reality.  From expecting and needing to the acceptance for all the 'Just-Is'.  For calmness and peace which is beyond time and space.

I woke up on that beautiful Sunday morning feeling charged.  My soul knew it was a day for change to happen.  For all thought energies to be transformed and manifested the way they should be.  There was some kind of immense tranquility.  There was unexplained quality about the day.  There was some kind of subtle strong force shifting my consciousness into a deeper state of consciousness, somehow into an altered state of awareness.  I felt Mother Earth was fillled with prayers for hope, for love, for peace.  For prayers of all things good.

Perhaps, because I had wanted that day to be treated, and spent, differently.  Few days before, I had been urging family members and friends to observe 11 July, 2010.  I wanted the beauty of that day to be embraced by many.  I wanted the significance of the event to be experienced and enjoyed.  Everybody deserved the change it had promised us.

For each one of them to find his/her way to connect, and reconnect, to Self and God-Source.  To sit with the consciousness of the day to bathe the soul, the mind and to unload the pains, stresses and confusions.  To go deeper into the soul and to feel love for the Self.

For the Self to submerge into silence and entered into mindfulness.  To allow the mind to become clean and free of all negative conditioning and raise beyond the realms of words, and emotions, from within to fully bath in the cosmos for the divine bliss.  To love the Creator and the creations. 

In the breathing silence of the day, many reported that the intense heat of the day was somewhat cool.  There was pure detachment of the 'outside' and the 'inside'.  The solar eclipse of the day was supposedly to bring intense heat but for those who observed felt otherwise. 

Many felt tired during and after the meditation.  For the record, any forms of meditation should not deplete one's energy but to restore one's vitality.  Meditation is a simple structure to relax the mind that connects us with our innermost Self, the spiritual source and the wellspring of life force.

The cosmic energy of that day was amplified within the rare alignment of the Cardinal T-Cross (The Grand Cross) and the dual eclipses and caused the tornado waves sweeping across the planet.  There were three very significant astrological occurences: The ful moon lunar eclipse on 26, June, The solar eclipse on 11, July and the 5 planet alignment in July (The Cardinal T-Cross).  It happened to bring us the positive growth aspect.

A lot of interesting things happened and together, we had written a new story to our lives.  It had been a great compilation of prayers and promises that will only bring new awakening zone in our souls.

This event was among the most powerful energies felt on our planet for millenia.  The planet configuration and associated angles represented an extremely rare and extraordinarily unique frequency that can offer a template of magnanimous change.

It was the intense frequency of that day that made us went deeper into our state of consciousness.  The intensity altered that state of consciousness making ready for us to vibrate with the New Light.  It caused us to be a little uncomfortable.  It was only natural that we became 'exhausted' and felt a kind of fatigue that we could not explain.  Our energetic body just had to rest and to go through a passive meditation.

The tiredness that most of us felt was, in any form of meditation, about releasing some deeply rooted stress or psychic and emotional toxins.  Taking a nap at the end of the meditation on that day was a good thing.  It was all part of a gradual process of healing and transformation.

Our consciousness was altered.  Some may experience his/her consciousness rising on higher and subtler frequencies.  Some may find slipping into a silent or dream-like space.  Whatever took place on that day, it was about a subtle yet sure process of our consciousness being elevated and the transformation it is catalyzing.

Our role in this process was simply to surrender to it, to allow it to flow without blocking it, forcing it, or attempting to control it.  The New Light was extremely intense and was quite capable of throwing many of us off center, if we did not maintain our guard.  Did not maintain our focus and our positive thinking.

For the next four to five weeks, we need to stay calm, be patient, be creative, be wise and nurture ourselves and one another.  We have been promised a quantum leap if we consciously utilize this energy and retain our auric integrity.

Many have shared with me of positive new experiences after had spent that day with their renewed hopes and prayers.  I am in joy to hear of their stories.  My prayers for each one of them.  For all their faith and hopes and to their creation of new manifestations.

Calling Wisdom

Life at its best is when we are able to still our mind.  To be in nothingness yet be in being.  To be grounded in the present; returning to now.  We have to have nothing to have something.  Lao Tzu, a chinese philosopher, quoted "To the mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders'.  It is an essential step toward inner peace and greater consciousness.

When nothing else matters but just to be in the present - the nowness.  To live life with an attitude of no expectations.  Without formal identity.  Without the need to associate our existence and who-and-what we are. Not affected by the sound of the traffic that drowns our tranquility.  Not bothered of where we are and who we are with.  Nor the rain or the heat of the sun that shows no mercy where our days or nights might be spent in vain.  Not wealth, nor health nor learning.

Our minds are often scattered with logical and analytical conditioning to remember and track that we are unable to see the birds that just flew by.  We don't see the eyes of our loved ones when we are with them.  We don't hear the beat of a loving heart through the words of love from our parents, brothers and sisters, friends and so on.  We don't feel the joy when our needs are satisfied. We don't see the sunset or the full moon. 

We go about life with expectations which are often not fulfilled.  We have the constant obligations to make ourselves what we are.  We make every attempts to change things in any way possible, often with judgement and often calling it good or bad.

Free of expectations and we will just go with the flow of the Universe.  We become less affected by the outcomes.  Expectations create fear.

When we make every single thing into consideration, all that we are really doing is to open the door for frustration, anger, jealousy and hate.  Our perception will usually put us in the position where we are not having enough of everything.  It only leads us down a road of disappointment eventually.

There is a purpose to everything.  Our existence and all the nature around us serve an interconnected purpose.  The spring water from the mountain serves its purpose to a thirsty traveler.  But this spring water is not there with the intention of refreshing thirsty travelers.

We need to open our mind to practice mindfulness.  It is better to become a Buddha than to be a Buddhist.  It is better to be Mohammad than to be a Muslim.  It is better to be Jesus than to be a Christian.  When we think all the time, we will never experience the true nature of our existence.  Of what wisdom can bring.  Of inner peace and the beautiful energy of highest vibration.  Of Joy and the the qualities of unconditional love.

It is better to be quiet than loud.  Talking more and loud clouds the little things that we can take notice when we are quiet.  When we talk all the time, we won't be able to hear what anyone else has to say.

It is what in the mind and our heart that makes the difference to find mindfulness in all parts of our life.  It is less religion and more practice.  It is less search for knowledge but utilise more of what we have already learned.  It is internalizing wisdom rather than aimlessly calling for it.  It is about living a wise and healthy and compassionate inner life.  It is about a call for a systematic exploration for the inner self towards the God-Source.

The call of (and to) wisdom is to foster a positive attitude.  Of knowing what does consciousness rest upon.  Of who-am-I beyond the 'I', the center of our consciousness and the center of our will.  On trusting for a blessed life, without limits.  For a soul to live his life with love and joy.  For a heart of a man to accept his conditioning.  Life is not about God-and-me alone but also with our relationship with other people and the vast nature of energies around us.

The spiritual life is a call to be in transformation, to become our true self.  To accept and understand that we are just a small part of the big thing.  That we go with each other, interconnected in one vast vibratory pattern.  We must have an openness to growth and change.  Every breath is a process.  Every breath is a life.  The virtue of wisdom is that it cannot deteriorate; its flaw is that it cannot improve.

Still the mind is a powerful transformation, a call of wisdom, for us to discover simple ways of getting out of our mental trap that we have created for ourselves.  We live a life become slaves to all our recurring patterns in an endless stream of thought processes.  We analyze every possibilities to everything; we create fear for the future and we live in regrets to our past.  Today is often not well lived.

Practicing the art of meditation can help to minimize the non-stop chatter that goes inside our mind.  It helps us to 'stop' thinking and start experiencing life, and to get us back to sanity and to the reality of the world.  In meditation, we would discover a state of consciousness.  We heal our inner self and are connecting - or reconnecting, with universal consciousness of wisdom.

Wisdom Call

Calling Wisdom

Karunesh

I am making a call here for anyone who wishes to connect and reconnect with peace and calmness to spend sometime during the day on Sunday, 11 July 2010 to meditate.  Or just sit calmly and immerse in a space of re-balancing and re-calibration of our energetic body with the Universe.  Spend at least half hour just to be with your soul, protecting your auric field and carefully consider your thoughts and actions.

What we are going to experience on 11 July 2010 is the solar eclipse.  Together with the full moon lunar eclipse on 26 June and the Cardinal T-Cross, this date and event represent an extremely rare and extra-ordinarily unique frequency that can offer a template of magnanimous change.

Many of us, for the past months, have experienced the energy building up within us and our surrounding.  We have symptoms or behaviours such as sleepless nights, lethargy, unexplainable anger or depression, bouts of high activities followed by complete inertia, isolation of oneself and feeling unhappy about doing certain tasks.  The list goes on.

On this date, 11 July 2010, be with your soul to pray for positive growth.  We have been blessed to pass through this period that has been packed with opportunities for inner growth and transformation.  This is the time for our soul wisdom to emerge from our cellular memory and be that voice that will guide us towards experiencing more love and joy.

Together, we shall pray for deep clearing and releasing of energies, especially emotions which are no longer serving our higher purpose.  May we be uplifted and motivated to weave new dreams, explore new possibilities and step onto new paths more aligned with our soul mission.

I Feel The Earth Move

If you are to look back, at the month of June 2010, you would probably notice a rising amount of events  that can really come together or they can really come apart.  It is a period where we are led by our thoughts, both from our emotional and spiritual minds, towards connection and support within the web of life.  It is a period to heal the polarizations and imbalances of yesteryears of who we have become today and to bring strategic alignment with our spiritual principals that will integrate our hearts, minds and divine source with our human societal frameworks.

Though the everyday events may be just another happening, and to some just another one-of-those-days, the occurence of it now somehow affects deep into our vibratory emotional rate.  It affects at a conscious level to bring about awareness of the change.  It brings significant attitudinal changes and value shifts.  We desire for that change and to acquire a new learning process to strengthen and trust our hearts and intuitive channels over our ego-programmed mind-talk.  We will go through transformation and almost literally changed our identities and become a different person as a result.  To some, it is a rebirth from the darkness into a new evolution.

Partial lunar eclipse - 26 June 2010 over Singapore

The heart center of Mother Earth has actually shifted and it affects us very subtly but surely.  Our soul feels it.  And so is the soul of Mother Earth.  June 26, 2010 is just the climax and the beginning for the cross of rebirth.  It is the day where some called it a Cardinal T-Cross, Grand Cross and/or Grand Square.  Regardless of what and how it is called and why it is called such, it is a noteworthy natural spectacle - a partial lunar eclipse that took place during the astronomical alignment and geometrical configurations of other planets and constellations.  Wikipedia describes June 2010 Lunar Eclipse as:

"A partial lunar eclipse took place today, June 26, 2010, the first of two lunar eclipses in 2010. At maximum eclipse 53.7% of the moon was covered by the earth's shadow.

This eclipse preceeds by two weeks the total Solar eclipse of July 11, 2010 over the south pacific.

The next total lunar eclipse, visible over North and South America, will occur six months later, on December 21, 2010.

This eclipse is a part of Lunar Saros 120 series, repeating every 18 years and 10 days, last occuring on June 15, 1992, and will next repeat on July 6, 2028. This series is winding down: The final total eclipse of this series was on May 14, 1938 and the final partial lunar eclipse will be on July 28, 2064."


What makes June 2010 different is the consequential result of the magnetic grid shift of Mother Earth.  It coincides with the longest summer solstice of the Northern Hemisphere.  Spiritually, this year the solstice has been regarded to be extra special - as it happens with the Cardinal T-Cross, where the collective human consciousness is changing and rising.  In the West, the ancient cultures have always regarded the occurences of solstice as an event for new beginnings and it is considered a sacred time of the year.

For those who are familiar with Kryon, the magnetic grid system and fields on our planet have been created.  It was balanced and re-balanced to match the physical vibrations of our evolving planet.  Mother Earth had gone through a magnetic tilt sometime in 1989.  Scientists acknowledged this subtle change in our magnetic fields through the shifts in the multiple flips of north and south polarity of Mother Earth's soil strata.

The consequence resulting from Kryon's magnetic service will affect our biological health and fine-tuning our spiritual consciousness to fit within our spiritual scheme.

In the context of human consciousness, June 2010 is a period for mental transformation and transmutation where we are, directly and indirectly, engaged into a fabric wave of manifestation.  It gives rise for humans for balanced enlightenment to exist and live.  Somehow, it makes us to do things that we hardly have thought about.  Or, will be going through attitudinal changes and value shifts.  Just for the month of June, I experienced a shared healing process of:

Focussed Healing

A 'call' from a group of friends - whom I have never thought would consider doing spiritual healing and meditations, to bring forth the awareness into them about these topics.  Healing amongst them had taken place where we did a group meditation together.  There was a renewed desire to look inward and to heal the soul from within.  There was a need to reach out for self-love for joy and peace.  There was an attractions for the metaphysical laws of the universe.

And for one, a Reiki healing attunement was strongly desired to be performed. 

Personal Harmony

A friend who could just give-up her deep passion for the game of mahjong.  It surprised many of us.  For a person whom had played the game for so many years and who will play mahjong every other day, the decision to stop was viewed as a visible connection towards something personal.  What probably could be internalized in her as 'bad', the Universe just showed the solution towards her personal harmony; the emotional vibration to bring forth peace within.

Law of Vacuum

There was a renewed awakening in another friend to bring about biological health through house spring-cleaning.  Where being tidy had never been a top priority, going back to scratch-and-basic and a tidy and neat environment re-emerged with a consciousness alteration for Law of Vacuum to take place.

The Law of Vacuum is about to make room for abundance (in health, in wealth, in spiritual consciousness) in one's life; it is a matter of getting rid of the old and unwanted things, and energies, that we do not want and no longer served us the purpose.  The vacuum effect simply asks us to let go - if we have tons of things and old energies surrounding us and we are holding onto them because we are afraid of losing them, we cannot make any new room in our life for more good things to come in.

I have another friend who did exactly this too.  Timing was just right.  A friend wrote:

For your info, during May 10, XXXXX invited me to her place for the first time for dinner ... My goodness, the house was really messy then, so while she was preparing dinner, I trusted my instinct and offered to help her shift some things in the sitting room. In fact, she admitted that it was very difficult for her emotionally to clear the stuff becos she was still grieving the passing of her mom. So she gladly accepted my boost of energy to get the clearing started ... throughout the evening, I helped her to clear her master-bedroom too ... and offered to pay for a new set of cushion and covers so that the whole house can have a more consistent colour scheme instead of clashing array of colours. But later, I thought it would be more meaningful if she could be engaged in an energy exchange as well as kick-start her to be the Master again: so I proposed for her to teach the Healing Attunement as well as Psychic Surgery to my Mastership class, which she accepted quite readily!!

I think XXXXX will go far ... she is already planning to host healing sessions or gatherings when the house is ready!!! So we got another alternative venue to gather in the near future.

The Rebirth Of Indigo Purpose

Love is power.  In the promise of the Universe, I witnessed the love connections of two Indigo Children whom I have cared for the last few years.  Their reunion gave an understanding on the meaning of 'God-Source'.  Their reunion came just in time before 26 June.  Together, they shared hands-on ways to connect and grow as they learn and play, working on dreams and life purpose.

Indigo Children are 'aliens' here on Mother Earth, incarnating in human bodies.  Some have been here just before the magnetic tilt of our planet, and many more will arrive, to help humankind.  But before such a grandeur task could be done, those Indigo Children need to go back to their true self and not stuck with earthly conditionings.  They are to heal us to experience love, the experience of God.  They will teach us love is not a word, or just a feeling, but an energy and power source.

Indigo Children will guide us to realize on our thought process.  The real thoughts of love and that will transfigure joy.  The love God-Source is the power that we will receive when we call upon God for anything.

The Freak Weather

Orchard Road Flooded - Photo by Vin Go

In Singapore, and for an unusal event, we experienced heavy rain that caused the Orchard Road Floods in just three hours on 16 June.  About 101mm of rain fell in the central parts of Singapore between 8 and 11 a.m.  That was more than 60 per cent of the average monthly rainfall for June, an amount equivalent to about 60 Olympic swimming pools.  It surprised many Singaporeans.  It was almost unimaginable.

Elsewhere, we heard of floods in France, in China, In Myanmar and in Europe.  A google on 'floods June 2010' will produce many search results.

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The Cardinal T-Cross, The Partial Lunar Eclipse and The Summer Solstice are The Gift for us to experience.  It is our new right.  It is for us to own it to bring in joy and peace to walk through what is to come ahead.  Love is ever so appropriate now to use in the context of the feeling.  In the words of Kryon, "It is the feeling of a loving parent who takes care of all your needs.  It is the feeling of a loving friend or mate who loves you unconditionally.  It has substance and is thick.  It is the loving arms of God.  It can actually be seen by some.  It is of singular source, and is unique in the Universe.  It belongs to us all, and is our personal source and our gift all at the same time."

Let me end this writing to quote from a greeting from a friend related to such event:

.. it presents a golden opportunity to change (for the better, of course): we can harness the high energy of this period to propel us in areas of our lives where we need a boost in order to achieve a breakthrough! 

 

But do be very aware of the quality of your thoughts though, lest those thoughts manifest quickly into your reality!!!

 

Just for the moment  ... let go of ALL your anger and frustration

(Why carry those sharp blades/points and fire in your heart and mind??!! You end up hurting yourself more)

 

Just for the moment ... let go of ALL your worries

(Why carry those burden of something which may not happen on your shoulders??! The weight is so bloody heavy leh! Are you tired??!)

 

Just for the moment ... let go of ALL your aches and pains: physical, emotional, mental ...

 

Just for the moment ,,, BE thankful in your heart for all the blessings in your life, Big or Small  ... a little gratitude can be a spark which can burst into fireworks of joy in your heart ... feel the feathery happiness tickling your heart and feel your facial muscles relax into a broad cheshire-cat smile)

 

Just for the moment ... Do something nice for your neighbour: offer a handshake, a pat on the shoulder, a friendly nod, some food, or a compliment! Enjoy the thought that you have the power to make a nice difference to a fellow inhabitant on Earth!

 

By now, do you feel a tingling in your heart, stirring you to charge forth in your life, and lift the vibration of all around you now???!! I certainly hope my wave of optimism has managed to do the trick!!!

 

Seize the day ... enjoy the blessing.

Dancing With The Mind

Finding Self-Worth, Part II

Sometimes, I wonder at the nuanced word 'selfish' when it is being verbalised.  Whether this word is being intended, or expressed, or signified about us or to the person at which the word is being directed at.  Whether the circumstances, at the point the word is said, are a call for us to further identify our inner state of being or truly reflect the character of the concerned individual.  Is it a psychological reaction of an expression indirectly an admission of who we are?  Is it about a self trait that we cannot accept?

Say, when another car suddenly cuts in front of our car on the road, adrenaline pumps into our bloodstream.  Our heart rate jumps.  Our blood pressure surges.  Immediately, we jump into conclusion how selfish and inconsiderate the other driver is.

Or, it started with a simple drive to the airport but, before long, our partner started to criticize the way we drive.  That we were not aggressive enough.  That we were not pushing past the speed limit resulting to arrive late at the destination.

Or, when we are being invited to a potluck gathering and we have to finish a project for the group.  In all the rush and time constraint, we offer not to bring anything but the finished project.  Our excuse is 'I have no time to go to the market, buy the stuffs and cook'.  Our stomach is filled but none of the food belongs to our contributions.

Or, a parent starts to instill guilt at the daughter, or son, to get married regardless of her/his conditions.  For them to have additional hand at getting support or at whatever their personal reasons may be.  Or, for them to have grand children just to hold the family's name.  Procreation is not the ultimate nor it is a compulsive, nor perhaps spiritual, duty of every souls.  Jesus, Mohammad, Buddha and Guan Yin didn't procreate.

Let's face it, it is always easier to judge and criticize someone else.  It is always easier to advise someone else.  It is always easier to push the blame to someone else.  Our world, as it is, is filled with a feeling towards hate.  We tend to empower this energy before we learn to love.  Love has been conditioned towards protecting our struggles with anger and frustration.  Love leans on the negative aspects as a result of our psychological defence against threats that hides our essential human vulnerabilities and weaknesses.  When anything or anyone threatens us with the truth of our essential being, the easiest and most common defense available is to think how selfish the attacker/interrogator/intimidator is.

Being selfish is a common human emotion.  We all feel it and we feel it more often than we like to admit.  Our parent, all our brothers and sisters, all our friends and the people around us AND ourselves feel hurt or irritated and will judge another to be selfish when someone or something obstructs their AND our needs or desires.  The psychological process is clear and simple.  If another person hurts us, we just want to hurt him back just as we have been hurt.

When I attended a motivational seminar many years ago, the facilitator asked 'Who should you love and take care first - your parent or yourself?'.  I struggled with my answer.  There I was, in front of many others, had to share it out loud my priority.  I sensed a room filled with judgement.  A room where some felt I was such a selfish son.  An inconsiderate child. 

I chose to think that I should take care of myself first.  It was, and still is, a conviction within me.  It may sound that I am a narcissist, someone who is basically in love with myself, only talk about myself and does not care about anyone else.  In that seminar, that I put my parent second.

Perhaps, I am being selfish to think this way.  Perhaps, this is what selfish is all about.  But what will happen should I ignore about my being, my health, my career and not able to support them in return?  How can I provide them when I am constantly troubled with life?  How can I give love when I do not know how to love myself?  How can I let them to live comfortably when I do not have a good career?  How can I nurse them should we are struck with illnesses at the same time?

It is always remarkable to see a son, or a daughter, care for the parent as though his own needs and desires hardly existed.  I am reminded of the safety airline speech, on board the plane, where we need to put our mask on first before we help with the child.  What if we had put the child's mask on first and we are not able to breathe well enough to take care of ourselves?  My principle is to learn to balance caring for self with caring for others.

It is not to advocate that we should not help those around us and be self-centered.  The core of the oxygen mask is rather that should we become faint from lack of oxygen, we won't be much good to anyone at all.  Speaking for myself, I have found that a certain core of peace and centeredness is necessary before I can really get engaged in promoting a happy, compassionate and peaceful environment.

If I get depressed, it may affect the people around me adversely.  The reverse is also true that when I do what it takes to be happy myself, the people around me reap the benefits.  Emotions, in general, are just plain contagious.

If I look at how I will leave this world alone, on death, being selfish will have a better meaning.  Growing up, I learned the hard way what not taking care of myself can do.  I watched it through the lives of my mum.  And my dad.  And, particularly my late eldest sister.  They sacrificed everything to take care of me and my sisters, give only to others and never themselves.  They worked full time and came home exhausted.

My mum and my dad never did things for themselves, never lived nor pursued their dreams.  Their focus was to make sure that our basic needs were met.  In the case of my late eldest sister, she was not putting the mask on herself and lost all her strength to fight her years with cancer.   When I grew up and realized the missing pieces, I were so resentful and angry.

We cannot give what we do not have.  If I want to give more, serve more, contribute more, build more, create more, I have to be stronger and more vital, have more stamina and vigor.  Only when we secure our own oxygen mask first that we can be more selfless and helpful for everyone else.

I admire, and hold full respect, some of my friends.  In particular, my master.  A man who finds his own strength before he could provide for others.  A man who knows how to say 'No' when he has nothing to offer.  A man who will then give endlessly when his hands are full.

However, being altruistic is not all rainbows.  We may be hit with conscience.  The bottom line is, as long as we remember to stand up for ourselves and take care of ourselves, becoming a more selfless person will help to make the world a better place.

Finding Self-Worth

No man is an island.  Human beings just do not, for a period of time, thrive when isolated from others. It is possible to spend time alone but it will never complete their social needs and growth. In the words of an English poet, John Donne "All mankind is of one author, and is one volume.  That when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language and every chapter must be so translated."

It is a totally different scenario with the need to being alone; in the period of alone-ness.  Being alone in the world, the world of alone-ness, even though we travel our journeys with people merely underscores how important faith, hope and understanding our spiritual self inside us (and probably in God) are.  There are times when we will feel incredibly desolate, confused and numbed to a communal reality that the call for alone-ness, the only man in the island, that such situation can thrive.  It would be, then, a spiritual call being true to ourselves.

I am touched, and moved, with Donne's content.  Particularly so for the latter part of it and on the line 'but translated into a better language'.  It tells us the significant to live our life.  It sums it up to bring awareness how we can change, and should change for the better, our mindset.  It is an awakening call to look within into our conscience; to work at it and honor everything that has provided for a better meaning to life.  Only when the acknowledgments are internalized, the purpose to life becomes clearer.  Every stones in every roads will uncast the process leaving every opportunity doors wide open.  Every life's value that becomes our actions will turn to results. 

How shall we live?  What shall we live for?  How we can decide right from wrong?  It is always important to recognize the values and, ultimately, in making a better wise choice.  Each one of us has a different set of value.  For some, the value may be living for wealth, for power, for reason, for virtue, for faith, for fulfillment, for love, for happiness, for integrity.  The list can just go on.

The content brings consciousness towards the subject about life and our imprints we leave behind on our death.  Hopefully, I will be able to  internalize within myself with the right sanctity for the right perception.  About the need to be surrounded with the right people for the right thing.  About accomplishments and perhaps, to live life with no regrets and everything is just enough.  For the conscientiousness of my (our) morals.  For a meaningful ending when faced with death.

It is, to me, a reminder about the importance on the quality of life that we need to exercise.  That, in whatever we do, think and act should be guided consciously towards it.  That we need to re-think our thought processes before we execute the actions.  We need to be aware of our words, our promises, our commitments, our desires and wants and so on.

How we should live a life truthfully within the sea of love.  With will.  With respect.  With honor.  With endearment.  With conscience.  Within the relationship we have with another.  About how we should never take for granted the people that we have come to treasure.  That have played a big part in our incremental growth.  To those whom have had shaped our lives.  To all the individuals that have, and continuously, designed our days and sharing and letting us to go through life experiences.  That have shared and provided valuable lessons for us to become a better person.  These are our parents, our brothers, our sisters and infact the whole family generation.  And then, there are our teachers, our masters and our friends.  Or our neighbours.

We are what we eat; we become what we think about.  I have become a strong believer, in life, that I cannot hold more than what I already have.  That it will be useless should I go on with life adding friendship every other day, or getting to know more people through social networking, but sadly only to become superficial with one another each passing day.  That I would only know them by their name, their status just because all I need is another friend.  Nor should I want to walk the path of fame, to feast on my ego, proudly announcing to the world that I know so-and-so and so-and-so. 

I believe when I am constrained with time 24-7, how then can I provide for new friends?  How then can I provide the love and the care?  We, as an individual, often fail to love oneself.  With all our limited time, we hardly spend to treat ourselves right.  We constantly deny the time, and love, to nourish our soul.  The soul that is the core of our true self, the very essence of whom and what we are.

What will be my motive for making new friendship?  What will be left of my intention for those that I already knew?  Where would I place the sincerity for my appreciation and gratitude?  When was the last time I did my part, as a so-called friend, calling any one out for a good meal, a good conversation?  Or calling to know, to share and catch up with his/her life? 

When was the last time I said 'I love you' to my mum, my dad, my siblings and my closest friends?  We don't even spend much quality time with our parents and siblings.  Or our soul partners.  We often find convenient excuses for not doing so.  The most important source of soul food for my soul is the quality time with loved ones.  It rejuvenates me and helps me to go on.  It makes me feel alive, full of life and connected to the Universe. 

The large quantity of people in my small hands does not count for my happiness.  Nor the quiet joy I seek in small groups.  Nor the peace of mind where I can put my trust and my faith.  Plainly, I am getting tired at just smiling and greetings at superficiality.

Perhaps, I am off the mindset of what Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship."  Though it is not a must, it is always good to have someone that shares a common goal.

It is only natural that friendship is developed in the office.  In school.  In meditation class.  But, to purposely find friends by logging to social networks, online chat rooms or going to pubs requires a little more consciousness.  It requires a little more the Self understanding.  It requires the opening of our awareness towards the search, and the desire and objective, it places in our current journey in life.

Do not get me wrong.  While making new friends is highly enriching and can be rewarding - and yes, that no man can ever be alone - we need to realize should we are able to take on the big responsibility to know another person and understand his/her feelings.  Friends comes with friendships.  Life is a journey and real good friends are with us in the caravan.  It is said that the natural process to life in meeting new friends, where it is guided with synchronicity and coincidences, is far more meaningful.

Just the other day, a friend passed a remark that she does not need so-and-so just because she has found some new friends.  New friendships are like the new broom that will sweep clean.  New things are always don with admiration.  We are mesmerized with everything new.  My friend's action kinda puzzled me.  I am saddened at the circumstances.  Friendship is not something that you can throw away just because there is a vacuum to be filled with someone new or when someone new comes along.

It is true, and unavoidable, that good friendship can sometimes just dies off.  That the person whom we have known for many years could just suddenly ceased to be part of our lifeline.  That a friendly relations gets strained, usually reaching a point of no return.  Such a situation arises when there is no longer a win-win situation where things are no longer absolutely hunky dory.

Friendship develops from a need.  It is a social call where two individuals first interact, or being interacting, with one another out from some common interest that binds the two.  Things become bad when one person gains and the other stands to lose.

In the wisdom of John Donne, "when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language and every chapter must be so translated."  We need to appreciate our friends.  We need to be part of their conditionings, good or bad.

I am wary about perception.  I pray hard to be watchful in the way I think, I judge and I perceive.  Perceptions are not always a reality.  Perceptions can destroy even the best of intention.  Our minds do not grasp everything our senses feed us.  Say, if it looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, swims like a duck, it must be a duck.

My friend's remark made me to think of what others would think of me.  Of their perception of me.  Not that it totally matters should I am that so-and-so, as in the case of that friend, gets dumped.  But, it would be sad to be in the situation arises from a deceived perception.  Or, from a situation where friendship is being compared to another.

Perception changes everything.  In the language of the Universe, perception often reveals the actions of the heart. We become indifferent and slack with enthusiasm.  Excuses start to come into play in almost all our actions and reactions.  We procrastinate at everything since love is no longer the wheel to drive the relationship.  My friend's actions have become a classic to the notion.  She avoids returning calls, ignoring sms-es and easily gets irritable.  Her easiest excuse is always to provide white lies that she has been busy, and busier.

Subconsciously, we 'grade' our friends based on our values - How they talk, how they eat, how they laugh, how they walk and so on.  Thing is, there is nothing wrong with all that.  It is only our perception that measures the interpretations.  And, it makes me wonder where am I in the eyes of my friends?  Where am I in the hearts of the people I treasure?

If there is one thing that I can learn from my mistake in life, it would be the time that I failed to honor my heart.  Only when my mum passed on that I was hit with remorse for not doing the one thing that I promised myself to give her.  Such is a state of our excuses for everything.  We would delay every attempts, and conveniently forget, the tasks that we should have carried out at the right time.

Almost a month ago, I was treating a young man who came to confide his problems.  I admire his courage to admit his weakness at white lies.  How it has actually affected his inner conscience.  When told that I knew he lied at things, not in any detrimental ways, I sensed his helplessness.  Lies are a no win-win situation especially when we want to have our friends, or our loved ones, with us in the same caravan of life.

I told him that life is simple made complicated by our desires.  That life, in itself, carries a vibrational energy with its own auric field of colors.  We cannot fake our aura.  It is always important to guard our color, our aura.  It is important to guard and live towards a clear conscience.  Our aura is basically an extension of who we are.  It speaks volumes.

The same principle goes with us living in Universe's abundance.  For its fruits to bear, we need to have a clean and clear conscience.  We need to have a strong sincere perception.  Not one that will hinder us from our growth.  It is always easier with a Yes or a No.  It is always dishonesty that denies us from entering into the gate of the Universe.  It is wise to live life to love for love rather than to love to lie.

I am praying for self conviction.

Happy Vesak Day.

The Language Of The Universe

In gratitude to Archangel Jeremiah (see note below)

Think. 
Just take a moment to allow our mind to think.
 
Asmuchas I often believe that thinking is a burden, that we should not allow ourselves to be trivial over petty things nor should we fret on small stuffs,  let's take this moment to reflect on all our needs.  Let's take this moment to conceptualize how they (can) come to materialize.

Let's find an understanding to how all the logical validity and our novel ideas and solutions can just happen, without having to struggle, right in front of us.  That, whatever we are looking or wondering and for all the answers that we hope to get, and have waited for, could be easily found.  That, we can find a simpler understanding with the dynamic quantum in the language of the Universe.  To the language, just like in the metaphorical saying of the Butterfly Effect, with all the answers readily available.

What the mind wants, the heart desires and it is said that the Universe will conspire.  We are all that is and all that will ever be.  We are the infinite light that creates all that is in this infinite Universe.  Everything starts with a thought and the base upon what we think is how things manifest.  We act what we think about.

A simple concept as this, however, does not bring about transparency nor an emotional and mental satisfaction.  What we often want is the validation for the answers to what we think - something to be gained and not loss; something good and not evil; something of success and not failure.  Generally, we want to avoid the feeling of restlessness and not groping in the dark and not regret the next actions and reactions .  We do not want to get tangled in spider webs nor letting our energetic vibrations to be disconnected from the higher self.

Humans are created to think.  Ironically, we cannot easily get to consign the thought process and move on.  We can only be able to move on in relative peace to the next phase until that thinking process has established the soundness in the answers and they are proven valid.

All throughout my life, I wonder about the real meaning 'A blessed life'.  When someone meets his goal, does that mean he is blessed?  When someone can afford luxuries, does that mean he is blessed?  When someone is calm and full of peace, is he blessed?  Then, there are those born with special gifts and the new breed of children with different auric colors.  Are these groups blessed?  Wikipedia defines blessing "the infusion of something with holiness, divine will, or one's hope or approval".

I have come to think that blessing is a two-way thing with many folds.  It carries a divine power with every bits of wisdom, intelligence, love and values.  It determines the characteristics of our personality and the soul creates a personality from those parts of itself that it wants to heal. 

We often make remarks that when an individual has reached an accomplished life journey with fulfilling results, he is blessed.  But this blessing will only be temporary if he does not lend to recognize the process.   For it to scale higher, it has to be connected (and not to discord) with gratitude and of love and knowledge.  The seat of the soul will only be enlightened when one does not forget at the result from his being.  Blessing is about getting it from where it deserves to how it comes about and then the propagation to pass on.

I grew up struggling with an awakening heart to find the being of light in myself.  I always have had the desire to search for meaning and purpose in life.  Guess, I have always been an individual caught in my own self-created lonesome environment.  Yesterday, a friend commented that I am much a loner despite my loud voice and laughter.  He is right as I often feel lost in a crowd.  I can be a loner if I want to.  It really is just a queer part of me.

I grew up a crying baby, often crying at everything and anything that made me sad - a sad song, a sad movie, a sad story or even for a friend whom felt sad.  I often cried for my parents who had to work so hard and sacrificed their lives for me.  I cried at losing my sisters when they got married.   I cried for my school grades and those off my classmate.  I cried for my inexpensive school bags and my sisters' and the used textbooks handed down to us.  I cried for the meals that I was forced to take and not those popular fast food I wished to have.  I cried at beggars trying hard to earn some monies.  I cried when a loved one going for business trip for just a couple of days.

As a growing young kid, and like any other growing children, I too had a desired rate of expectations.  But those tears are not about self pity.  Those are not tears of feeling sorrow over sufferings.  Mostly, I felt sad at the condition and quality to why they happened - to me, to them.  At how a value determined a spirit.  Often, I prayed for the Universe to release and lessen the pains of my bleeding heart.  For purpose.  For meaning.  For acceptance.

It reminded me of a book by Morgan Scott Peck, "The Road Less Traveled".  I grew up traveling in time and spending almost my school life, for such a young growing kid, in Botanic Gardens alone.  For good few years, after finding good and valid excuses to my parents, I would be heading there after school as early when I was 15 years old.  It was something I looked forward to do everyday after school.  Botanic Gardens was my refuge, my secret sanctuary.  I studied alone and would do my school homeworks there but, importantly, I felt great joy in such solitude.  There was so much joy, and intensified internal peace, in just thinking and in unity of one with Mother Nature.  The trees and the leaves and the flowers, the birds and the ants, the blue skies and the white clouds, the winds, the rains .. slowly, they became my friends.

Perhaps, those growing years - as Peck mentioned in his book, were about my evolution.  That "God wants us to become Himself (or Herself or Itself).  We are growing toward God.  God is the goal of evolution."  In those years of solitary silence, I was blessed to learn the language of the universe; the language of God.

Written by Osho:

.. then a language is needed, a language which is universal and not local to humanity.

Feeling is that language. Greek or Arabic or Sanskrit won't do. No language originating in the mind is divine language. No, the divine language originated in the heart. Feeling is the language.

If you start really feeling, and your heart starts really throbbing with feeling, you can ask a tree, and a tree is always ready to reveal its secret. You can ask a bird, and the bird is ready to reveal its secret. You can ask existence, and existence is ready to reveal its heart.

Many of us live life asking 'why?' to anything and everything.  We create endless doubts to every answers.  We go on asking questions on a question.  We can never be fully satisfied with simplicity of truths.  The Universe, matter-of-fact God, communicates with us every time we seek for answers.  Every time we have questions.  It is just a matter of knowing.  It is just a matter of consciousness in our awareness.  All that we need to do is to raise our vibrations and elevate the density of self.

Everything is some type of energy and everything vibrates at some frequency.  We are endowed with our five senses that have already been programmed with highly specialized sensors to translate the vibratory world into our physical world.  Our eyes translate visual vibrations into the world we see.  Our ears translate auditory vibrations into that which we hear.  Our touches synch with the kinesthetic vibrations into emotional intelligence.  Our nose with its olfactory vibrations into what we smell.  Our taste processes the gustatory vibrations and so on.

We are connected in this way to everyone and everything else in the Universe.  We, and all the nature around us, are vibrational transmitters and receivers constantly exchanging vibes with the vibratory world around us.

** When we hear someone asking 'Do you miss so-and-so?', the question is encoded within that someone missing another.

** When we see an imprinted word and immediately felt jolted, say a name "Miss X", we flip at some occurrence of events that will happen at the near future.

** When our hearts are feeling heavy and the radio is playing exactly the right song.

** When we lost the passing of a loved one and the rain just showers down becoming different in essence.

** When we want a story of our life to be told at a particular time, a page from the book we pick out of the shelf describes it all.

It is the butterfly effect.  Answers to all our questions are all around us.  We just have to reach out.  We are light and love of the almighty infinite light that is commonly referred to as God.  The only difference is the density of self in our frequency and vibrations.  

How we feel emotionally reflects our current vibratory state.  The subtle energies that make up our auric fields constantly sending out and receiving waves of intelligent energy over a universal network of energy fields.  All the entirety of space and time, and all the forms of matter and energy work together.

This is the gift to us from the Universe, or God, to live life simpler only when we take our time to understand the language.

Last Thursday, 6th of May at about 9 p.m. (Japan time), I was rewarded with a brief spiritual visit.  Strange as it is, I am thankful for the eventful greetings.  Perhaps, it has to do with the energetic fields and vibrations around the area.  I was in Lake Toya, Hokkaido - a lake that never freezes even in winter when the temperature falls drastically.  Lake Toya lies 200 to 500 metres below the outer rim of the crater.  The active volcano that stands proudly near the lake with white smoke rising above it is Mount Showa Shinzan.  The volcano was elevated when the ground cracked during a huge eartquake in 1943.

Lake Toya - View from Hotel Lobby

While I tried to brave myself, walking out of the hotel in the cold towards the lake, a white light appeared right before me.  There was a sense of peace within but still I was apprehensive.  Though the messages that were given still puzzled me, today I am still wrapped with joy to be greeted by Archangel Jeremiah. 

I knew nothing about such an angel till I googled and found out that Archangel Jeremiah is an angel of heart and emotions to help humankind to let go of anger, bitterness which would otherwise cloud our experience of the light.  She is an angel to ease our pains.

Her message will be remembered ..

"You are loved.  You are cared.  Be careful, you'll get hurt."

For now, I may not fully understand nor conceptualize it.  Nor could I place her loving message in a bigger picture.  Yes, I am not going to think much.  Yes, I am not going to dissect it too much.  What is important is the gift of light.  I feel blessed.

That night, few of us won some lucky draws.
That night, I had a very good conversation with another angelic being.

Voice Of The Heart

I have always regarded my blog, as I put down my thoughts and feelings into writing, to be my voice that needs to be heard by the Universe.  It is a way to pronounce my intention - my prayers in black and white.  Here is where I make my prayers known.  It is instrumental to my belief to narrow the gap and lay the bridge between me and the entirety of space and time and all forms of matter and energy.  What is written is the voice that cannot be taken away; that I must honor and have to stay true.  It ingrains my conviction and commitment.

Reiki Sanctuary is the temple for my soul.  It is a place where I allow myself to think for myself and not the product of my environment.  For my mind to find its peace and to slow down my critical, and often confused, emotional thoughts.  My mind is usually all over the map.  I am not so much an optimist, realist nor pessimist.  Here is where I keep searching for the spark of my individuality and to believe in myself.  Here is where I struggle not to just float out with any tide that rolls in.

What is important to me may  not be important to others.  Here is where I find the strength and the courage to live, to be who I am.  To stay in the breaths of life and be alive.  Here is where I seek refuge spilling out my joys, my pains, my visions and my restlessness.  Here is where I can quieten the enormous thought processes.  Here is where I do mental housekeeping.

I don't want to be part of something larger than what I can hold for myself.  My sense of justice has dictation over my happiness.  I must be true to my conscience, never disregarding it for any reason.  To be happy, I have to be me.

Importantly, here is where I feel the hands of God guiding me.  Here is the temple where I feel the power of God, where I learn the power of God and where I am residing in His kingdom.  Everyday, I am learning to master in His subtle mysterious language.

For someone who used not to believe in writing a diary, I have come quite a long way.  The postings that started with my renovation were only the beginning for a bigger thing - at least, for me.  Those are the foundation of structural process to hold the future.  My future.  Without them, there will be none today. 

There is always a liberated feeling when a thought is released.  Often, I feel grounded.  Often, I feel at peace afterwards.  To me, in the language of the universe, a w-w-w is analogous of a world wide web that is being condensed to become smaller.  With this blog, I feel closer with the Universe.  Heck, actually, I feel one with the Universe here.  That there is no space, no time between us.

Reiki Sanctuary is my sacred space.  It guides and contains my conscience.  It is a mandala of sort, my personal mandala, where time is dedicated on resolving issues.  Like a mandala, it is my manifestation tool.  It is where I bring my consciousness into focus.  After which, I am allowing the law of attractions and vibrations to fill the vacuum between me and the Universe.  Till the vacuum becomes none.  Nothingness.

I find joy here.  I am at peace here.  I feel the presence of many joyful and peaceful things in this blog.  I feel the presence of my guides.  I feel the presence of spirits.  Each time I start to work something here, I feel connected to the Universe, to God.  It is, as though, I am having a good time making conversation with Him.  Perhaps, that is the reason why some of my friends would say that I am long-winded here.  When I feel that strong connection, there is just no stopping.  Guess, when we feel safe and peaceful somewhere, we just do not want to leave that place.

Yesterday, I put down my thoughts for a dear friend - My Love For You Is True.  I wanted my prayers for him to be heard.  I wanted his issues be guided.  I believe in the power of prayers.

Today, I received an email from him and just feel that it is only right that I post it here.  That, his message be written in Reiki Sanctuary, his mandala to be cared by the Universe.

Dearest xxxxx,

I've just finished reading your blog and am really touched by your very kind words, thoughts and most importantly your prayers. I will be needing it more so now, as I throw off this old cloak that seems to want to follow me and weigh me down.
 
I felt so much better, lighter and refreshed after chatting with you and slept very well that night, waking up fresh the next morning to turn a new page, take a new road and face a better outlook ahead, leaving whatever 'trash' behind. ....... I have joyously released my past and am free from it.......thank you, Universe!! Thank You xxxx Dear for your loving prayers!!
 
Yes we all have come a long way together and I know there will be many many more years of joy and laughter to share. Yes the love and friendship between us never ceases to amaze me and I feel recharged, with bonds more strengthened and alive, everytime we meet, even if it is for brief spells. You have become my life's 'battery charger' and I too feel privileged to be part of your life and will always appreciate your kindness and ever enduring patience......so you have to be strong for me now...!!

Thank You, Greg.
Thank You, Universe.

My Love For You Is True

Yesterday, while chatting with a dearest friend, sadness visited my soul.  Not in a big punching sorrowful way but enough to make me feel, and realize, how special he is in my life.  Enough to make me stayed up to pray.  Enough to warrant some time reflecting on the beauty of friendship.  Of love.  Of wants.  Of what life would offer if I am not going to honor the beauty in this person.  Enough for me to spend my time writing this, as part of my prayers, to tell him that he is loved.

The consciousness of his presence, in my search for meaning, brightens the inner significance about love and friendship.  His kindness, his care, his support that often chases away my dark clouds.  Flashes of the past in sequential snippets framed in my mind where we shared our life story, sharing all about our deepest secrets and the heartily laughter between us that never stops.

Our friendship has come a long way.  It has surpassed the silent language between us.  Though the distance between us is far - and it has been that way since day one whether he is in Queensland, Australia or in Pattaya, Thailand - we have never stopped to let each other know about our being.  About what is happening or to our future plans that we will undertake.  About our thoughts and feelings.  About our anger and fear and our hopes.

There is an air of superior quality about this friend; a quality deserving praise and a blessed virtue to those be a part of his life.  I am fortunate to be part of his merits.  In all life's imperfection, I believe in his sincerity towards me.  I believe in his love for our friendship.  I believe in his love for me.  I believe in his prayers for my well being.  I believe in his support whenever, or should, I need a shoulder.  I believe in the creation of a soul friendship not out of need but a want.

Just before we ended the conversation, he told me to brave life.  It was such an irony when I should be the one telling him so.  It bothers me knowing about his recent state of health.  It shakes my strength.  It makes me wonder how a wonderful lively person will need to recourse his normal daily activities.  It gives me a gloomy mood to think on a twist to life to a person that I regarded always full of love.  Of always wanting to give and always put himself second to others.   It just does not seem fair. 

It saddens me when we have to face life and not played it with a freewill.  That we have to change its course and carefully not to thread nor do what, and how, we want to go about doing it.  Somehow, we have come to a crossroad where faith and freewill become joined by twinning together.  They are no longer separate.  Perhaps, a time has come where a paradigm shift needs to be in the forefront to bring awareness about quality of life.  About going deep into a divine energy that will only make us to appreciate the breaths of being alive.

Perhaps, I am over reacting over such a trivial news.  Somehow, I believe it so too.  But for me, it is not about the alarming numerical count of his high blood pressure.  Medical sciences and the technological advances of medicines can take good care of that.  It is what goes behind the symptom that makes me to feel sad for him.  That, such a dear friend, is still struggling.  Still trapped with his past.  About him, and how the many more of us, still lives a life floating above the truths and pretending everything is fine.  That we can never take away the masks off our face, for some reasons, afraid that it will disrupt on the foundation to the life we have created.  That we never wish it to crumble the joy and the happiness.  That we need to be on guard and often filled with wariness and watchful to make sure they do not disappear.  About how we just conveniently choose to bury our deepest sorrows and, hopefully, they will just go away with time.

I am a huge fan of Louise Hay.   I just believe in her metaphysical interpretation.  She has changed the way I think.  She has changed the way I live my life.  She has assisted me, and to those that I have shared her message, in discovering and using the full potential of our own creative powers for personal growth and self healing.  In her book, You Can Heal Your Life, she has provided me the tapestry to life's mystery.  It has helped me.  It has helped the people around me.  It should help communication.  It should help relationship.

Early this month, I was unwell for about ten long days.  I was trapped with my own inner crying.  My heart was crying for help, for attention.  I knew the day I verbalised the words "please do not leave me" that I was on the road for full recovery.  That is what Louise Hay is all about.  She brings consciousness to the unspoken spirit.  She brings back the realization to the soul only when we choose to address the symptom.

Right now, my sadness is about what lies deep in the soul of this dear friend.  It makes me to think harder how I have taken life for granted.  How I have taken him for granted.  How a simple life is more than just a brief greeting.  Nor that a laughter, or a good cry, is never an act to end a revelation, a confession or a story fully told.  There is always that little reservation for an unfinished sorrow deep within us that we dearly pray only a divine intervention can take it away.  This is my lesson from him.  That love is not only about feeling but knowing.  That love has a language and it needs to be recognized and communicated.  Love, just like a human need, requires the extra mile.  This is the divine nudge for me to pray for him.

The power to live has shifted back to him.  For a change to happen, it has to start with acceptance.  It has to evolve with consciousness and being aware that it is safe to look within.  I am talking about having a great respect for life and a gratitude for the miracle of our bodies and our minds.  Life goes in cycles because we allow it.  For a spirit to fly, there is a time to do something, and then there is a time to move on.

Let's rebuild our friendship but for this new conviction to happen, we need to understand the long standing emotional problem that are not solved.  My prayers are set on this.  My prayers are for the divine light to beam deeper in our communication.  What remains will be my love, and deep gratitude, for this dear friend.

"You are never alone, Greg."

This is an extract from Louise Hay:

Blood is joy.  The veins and arteries are channels of joy.  Everything works under the law and the action of love.  There is love in every bit of intelligence in the Universe.  It is impossible to work and function well without love and joy being experienced.

Negative thinking clogs up the brain, and there is no room for love and joy to flow in its free and open way.

Laughter cannot flow if it is not allowed to be free and foolish.  It is the same with love and joy.  Life not grim unless we make it so, unless we choose to look at it in that way.  We can find total disaster in the smallest upset, and we can find some joy in the greatest tragedy.  It is up to us.

Sometimes, we try to force our life to go in a certain way when it is not for our highest good.  Sometimes we create a 'blood' problem to force us to go in a totally different direction, to re-evaluate our lifestyles.

The heart represents love, while our blood represents joy.  Our hearts lovingly pump joy throughout our bodies.  When we deny ourselves joy and love, the heart shrivels and becomes cold.  As a result, the blood gets sluggish.

The heart does not attack us.  We get so caught in the soap opera and dramas we create that we often forget to notice the little joys that surround us.  We spend years squeezing all the joy out of the heart, and it literally falls over in pain.

If we do not take the time to appreciate the joys of life, they will just create another problem in time.

Where Is The Love

I am certain that nearly everyone would agree that honesty is the best policy; that we are told honesty breeds comfort.  Our parents tell us it is so; our teachers tell us it is so; our partners tell us it is so.  So are the friends whom we meet regularly, those that desire to cherish a good tie, tell us to be honest with each other.  The whole community, where we live in, expect it to be so too.  It is the comfort knowing all relationships are being prized preciously with love and respect that makes everyday a joy.  And, the peace of mind that can only escalate all our daily activities and turn all events with gratifying desire for positive endeavours.  In moral terms, honesty is without a doubt a virtue, and dishonesty is a vice.

We should want to be honest because it opens a climate full of trust and confidence that will only lead to healthy attitudes and relationships.  William Shakespeare said "Honesty is the best policy.  If I lose mine honor, I lose myself.'  What is uttered from the heart alone, in the spirit of staying true and honest, will win the hearts of others to our own.  Integrity is telling the truth; honesty is telling the truth to other people.

Honesty, which is often an under-rated virtue, holds rewards filled with dear promises where people will just want to deal with us much more because they can open up and, in return, trust us.  Honesty, and being truthful, lets an individual with nothing to hide. He/she can walk proud and does not have to remember what was being said and who he/she said it to. Honesty renders, in us, to have a clean and clear conscience, which is ever essential if we are to render sacred service to humankind.  Being honest is a lot easier as it eliminates the gnawing fear of being caught.  Unfortunately, to some, becoming honest is not an easy thing to do.

Matter of factly, honesty should be ingrained naturally in us and to be a second nature to live life daily.  It should be a constant mantra in all that we say, do and think - in all our daily interactions with another being.  That we should say what is the truth and genuinely not devious, do what is honestly right which is characterized with admission of responsibility, and think not to deceive but to hold and display integrity.  We should honor to bring the nurturing power of the Universe's energy into our life that brings lasting positive results.

Yet, when push comes to shove and our failure to take charge of our swinging thoughts, many of us just cannot help to uphold such a simple virtue but to tell white lie to avoid hurting someone's feelings.  We might even tell ourselves a little white lie to face ourselves from the reality of truth.  Perhaps, we have been brought up by our social environment to hide the truth as to avoid troubles, or risking causing offense to others who may not want or need to hear the complete truth.

No matter how insignificant we might think a little white lie has on any relationship, the energy of this little white lie looms between us and the other person.  We might argue, and probably validate all reasons to ease our conscience, that little white lies are harmless.  That being honest hurts.  However, they are like small cracks that weaken the overall structure in the long term.  Speaking the truth (honesty) is analogous to a complete full picture made with every pieces of the jigsaw puzzles where each piece needs to fit at the right place.  Words, just like the jigsaw pieces, are energy that vibrate with every thought process that must move in one direction.  That, at the end of any communication, a perfect picture should surface.  Dishonesty will only magnify the inadequacy out from the missing jigsaw piece.

Many may not realize the drained energy in them executing lies.  It is almost a God's way for us to forget the lies that we had told someone; lies are just hard to remember.  Lies are not factual events - they are not pieces of the jigsaw puzzles for that complete full picture - and the energy does not get stored in our memory.  People do not remember what was said and, worse, if they are words made to deceive.

Giving someone a false compliment or ostensibly protecting someone can create problems later when the alternate truths we created become the basis for further interactions.  Even when all future actions may be honest, the underlying unstable foundation of a little white lie will threaten to derail an otherwise good relationship.  This then will lead to further energy being spent on keeping things hidden, working to remember the little white lies we have told and fearing the consequences of being found out.  Ultimately, at a very unconscious and subconscious levels, our relationship with another becomes a tiring and draining experience.

Being honest is about speaking the truth and affirming what already is.  It transcends the honest flow of life and moves with the same direction of the universal law of cause and effect.  It cultivates and strengthens our physical, emotional and spiritual well being and leaving us with more energy for other pursuits.  When we speak and live our truth, the universe supports us.

Personally, I am guilty of telling white lies, though I would want to assert an action 'omitting the truth' as a defence.  Somehow, with all the reasons that I could give to validate and defend my actions, I often wonder why - after the white lies or omit the truths are told - what kind of a person am I?  What prompted me to seek such alternative, in all the moral and social terms, as desirable?  Do I want to take the risk to fail myself as a lightworker and/or warrior of light - the principles of my life, having such deficit in social interaction to morality?  The guilt that creeps afterwards is just not worth it.

My point here, everybody lies.  By the time a child gains an awareness of the use and power of language, dishonesty becomes second nature and a typical brain development.  It is as good as giving dishonesty a defined characteristic of what it is to be human.  Infact, it is not the only defining characteristic, but it does separate us from other animals.  Some non-human species may have a limited capacity for deception but humans have a flexible, unlimited capacity for deception.

Becoming an honest person requires a deep awareness and consciousness for integrity.  For harmony, respect and to strike a balance.  When we just love someone, and care enough for their happiness, we should live to speak and act the truths.  When a person lies, he/she has broken a bond - the unspoken agreement to treat others with love and respect, as we would like to be treated.  Dishonesty, or deception, often makes it impossible for us to trust another person again.  When the issue of trust is on the line, coming clean about the lie as soon as possible is the best way to mend fences.

Today, I am making a conscious effort to free myself of the burden of dishonesty.  This writing is about a prayer to attract the energy of honesty that sets my life for meaningful attitudes and relationships.  Towards a better quality of life.  Towards greatest love and respect.    For my life to follow the honest flow of life, may this writing resonate deep with my soul.  Together, with all the people that cross into my path and those that I treasure, we shall begin today to choose honesty in every of our interactions.

.. and all in the name of Love.